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Yeah, yeah, yeah, i went up in weight again. I know, this blogging still does not help me to get motivated to loose weight. I'm to excited just working on grip stuff. But as soon as my wife get her foot operated on and all healed up, i will start paying attention to my weight. She helps motivate me and her foots been broken now for over 3 months. I no its no excuse but it my easy way out. I still love eating food, alteast i have not smoked in what? 4 years? i stopped counting. That was easy to quit because i just stopped. Eating is so much harder to control because you still have to do it a couple of times every day. When did you hear someone come back from re-hab saying the doctor saif i can only have 3 drinks a day? or no more then one line a day for me. NEVER, every other addiction has you stop that addiction completely. That the only way to overcome those demons. But not people addicted to eating, we just have to suffer. And that is why i feel most people who diet always go back to gaining weight eventually. very few are sucessfull. Some, but very few compared to all of us who fail, time after time.

This does not mean i'm quiting, i'm just saying why it is so hard for me. I'll get it again. It's not loosing the weight thats hard (shit i've lost 100's of lbs over the years) the hard part is maintaining it after i loose it. Like the last 2 years when i lost 60 lbs, then i gained back 70, lost 25, gained 15. I am the perfect example of a rubber band. Just last year i was working out 2-3 times per day for 6-7 days a week for about 4 months. And lost nothing!! why, because the more i worked out, the more i ate. I was in great cardio shape but i was still fat. I must have been the fatest person that could still run at a decent pace. I was at about 260 when i ran a 5K in about 28 mins. Nothing supburb but not bad for my weight.